Another Angel
I have faith in God and that faith is what makes moments of sorrow bearable.

I was pregnant, again. I had made it past the 12 week mark. Everything was fine. I made it past the 16 week mark. That is when we lost our son last March. I was great! I even got to the half way mark and found out we were having a little girl. Then at 21 weeks I gave birth to our beautiful daughter. Sydney Grace was born at 4:25pm on May 3, 2006. She was 11.9 oz and 9.5 inches long. She was so sweet, but she came too soon and with out a heartbeat.I know that she and her brother are in heaven. They will never know pain, hurt, or sorrow. I know I will see them someday. I just miss them. I will miss holding them and feeding them, seeing them smile and kissing away thier tears. I will miss them for the rest of my life, but I know God is taking care of them and in that I can find peace. My heart is still broken and I will never be the same, but I have two beautiful angels watching over my husband and I.

"The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit." Psalm 34:18

Current Mood: thankful
Current Music: Just the birds chirping outside.

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SNOW!!!
It's our first snow fall of the season. We are getting the ever familiar lake effect snow. :o)

Just in time for Thanksgiving.

Current Mood: happy
Current Music: "There's a Kind of Hush" Johnny Mathis

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Worst Yet...
I don't think I've ever ate so badly in my life. For dinner last night we had Cheddar Cheese Chex Mix and Salt & Vinegar Chips. Today I've had 3 cups of coffee, about a dozen Tim Horton donut holes and a chocolate chip cookie!! I should just eat a pound of lard for dinner and call it a day!!! Good Grief!!!!

Current Mood: nauseated
Current Music: "Don't Give Up" by Peter Gabriel

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Sadly...
On March 31, 2005 at about 4 and 1/2 months along in our pregnancy we lost the baby. I gave birth to a tiny, but beautiful little boy. I know everything happens for a reason and I have to believe that. He will be missed.

Current Mood: indescribable
Current Music: "Gone" - Montgomery Gentry

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A New Addition!!!!
WE ARE HAVING A BABY!!!!!

We just found out last week. Bill and I are very excited. We are expecting our little bundle in the early part of September. YAY!!! You can imagain our surprise being that I've been told since age 16 children where not possible. We showed them!

Current Mood: jubilant
Current Music: Gary Allen - Nothing But the Radio

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Home Sweet Home
Well...I never in a million years thought I would say this. I'm moving home. Back up to Western New York. I am going to be celebrating 4 blissful months of marrage on the 3rd, closing on my house at the end of September and moving mid-October. I'll be settled by Halloween!

We found beautiful log cabin home that has a horse barn, pasture, and an eight stall barn for our horses. Luckily there is a 3 car garage too - this is going to come in handy for those incredible winters up there. All this is situated on 10 or so acres.

I am so excited!!!! I didn't think I was ever going to go back there to live. It's not exactly where I grew up, but it's in Chautauqua County, very close the Chautauqua Lake.

My husband is looking forward to it too. He loves it up there.

I have been though so much in the 5+ years in south wester PA. I have loved, lost, and loved again. I have made life long friedships and put some behind me.

Farwell Philly, Conshohocken, Media & West Chester!

Current Mood: excited
Current Music: Elvis Presley

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My birthday
It was wonderful. I was getting ready to leave work to go home and one of my co-workers, Kim, told me there was a call for me on her line. I didn’t think anything of it so I picked up the call. There was a man on the other end.
“Hello, this is Lori.” I said

“Hi Lori. This is Sgt. O’Reilly is the Pennsylvania Sheriff’s Department. I am doing a investigation for the DMV and I need to ask you a few questions.”

At this point my heart was pounding. I had no idea why he wanted to talk to me and I was raking my brain to think when I had done something wrong. All I could come up w/ is that my lead foot might have been active in one of those electronic speed traps.



“Ok.” Was about all I could come up with.

“You have lived in the State of Pennsylvania for approximately 2 years?” He asked

“No, it's 5 now.” I told him.

“Oh well I guess our records need to be updated on that then. Now our records also indicate that … IT’S YOUR BIRTHDAY!!!!”



I almost fainted. I was stuttering and speechless for a few seconds.

“You’re kidding me right?” I finally said.

He just started laughing and said “Happy Birthday, Lori.”

“Who is this?”

It turned out to be on the of the Surety guys that I work w/ on a regular basis. Tom Littlefield. He was usuing a good Penn-Tucky voice. He got me really good. I found out later it was Kim that told him it was my birthday, but it was he that came up w/ the police officers bit. He got me good and I don’t think I will forget that one for a long time!

Current Mood: happy
Current Music: Radio

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Work
Tomorrow is Christmas Eve. I have a ton of work on my desk and getting out of here at a decent time tomorrow is not likely. All my Christmas shopping is done. I have to finish a scarf and wrap that. I think I will have the orange on my desk for dinner. yum.

This Christmas is going to be different. Wonderful but different. Isn't life funny the way it moves you about?

Merry Christmas.

Current Mood: hopeful
Current Music: County Music Radio Christmas Songs

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HOLA!!
Today is great day. I really don't have much going on these days but hey.

That's about it!

Current Mood: blah
Current Music: Tetris songs

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Life
This e-mail was sent to me and I'm sharing with you....there's a lot of meaning to this perspective, take heed and enjoy your life to the fullest. LIFE IS TO SHORT NOT TO BE HAPPY!!!!!
"The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom. We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.

We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things.

We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete.

Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever. Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side. Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.

Remember, to say, "I love you" to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you. Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again. Give time to love, give time to speak, and give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.

Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

HOW TO STAY YOUNG

1. Throw out nonessential numbers. This includes age, weight and height. Let the doctor worry about them that is why you pay him/her.

2. Keep only cheerful friends. The grouches pull you down.

3. Keep learning. Learn more about the computer, crafts, gardening, whatever. Never let the brain idle. " An idle mind is the devil's workshop." And the devil's name is Alzheimer's.

4. Enjoy the simple things.

5. Laugh often, long and loud. Laugh until you gasp for breath.

6. The tears happen. Endure, grieve, and move on. The only person who is with us our entire life, is ourselves. Be ALIVE while you are alive.

7. Surround yourself with what you love, whether it's family, pets, keepsakes, music, plants, hobbies, whatever. Your home is your refuge.

8. Cherish your health: If it is good, preserve it. If it is unstable, improve it. If it is beyond what you can improve, get help.

9. Don't take guilt trips. Take a trip to the mall, to the next county, to a foreign country, but NOT to where the guilt is.

10. Tell the people you love that you love them, at every opportunity.

AND ALWAYS REMEMBER: Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

If you don't send this to at least 8 people....who cares?" -George Carlin

Current Mood: impressed
Current Music: Counrty

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It's almost here!
I'm still at work getting ready to head out. I am going to venture into the rain. I'm so happy about the fact I can think about packing away all those horrid summer clothes.

That's right folks -- the Fall Season is upon us and the pumpkin siting atop the hay stacks in front of super markets have started. The smells of fresh apple cider and the tastes of warm and spicy food will be adorning our palates in the near future. You ask if I love this season w/ it's beautiful changing leaves and crisp air. You bet your fluffy sweater I do!

This is my favorite season...this is the season that Peanut Butters my Jelly boys and girls. I am one happy camper! The aromas of scotch tape and new note books and wet leaves. Ahhh...I can hardly hold in my excitement. *giddy laugh*

Out of the office I go w/ a smile and an umbrella.

Go well!

Current Mood: giddy
Current Music: Journey

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Cold...
It's so very very cold in our apartment. I don't mind unless I am trying to type cause my fingers get all cramped up. Oh well!!!!

Current Mood: cold

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SICK!!!
AAARRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGG!
I hate being sick. I have a sinus infection that is making me miserable! YUCK YUCK YUCK!!!!

Current Mood: cranky
Current Music: Zen playing Zelda...AGAIN!

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Holy SNOW!!
It snowed all day yesterday and last night...it stopped for a little while while the wind blew and then the sleet came. It snowing again now. It also seems that I have LOST my car...there is a large mound of snow where I had parked it and a small wire looking thing that might be the antena...too bad for me I don't have a shovel. It's going to take forever to dig out my car.

Current Mood: bored
Current Music: The chain saw sound of a man sleeping on the sofa

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Sad...
Yesterday was a sad day. A friend will be dearly missed and the people she left behind are to pick up the pieces and attempt to understand why this happen to such a beautiful and wonderful girl and her un-born daughter. Life isn't fair. We'll miss you, Ashley & baby girl.

Current Mood: sad

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ICE
I can't believe what dumb ass I am. I was getting ready to go to work this morning and when I was walking out the door, arms full of crap (i.e. lunch, purse, keys), I opened the door and stepped out. I was doomed from the first step...actually that is the only step I took and landed at the bottom. The stairs were covered in ice and I was the one to find out the hard way. I fell down five cement steps that lead to my apartment door. What’s funny, there is a bucket of rock salt for de-icing that was between the two doors or our landing…No one, however, had bothered to use it.

I lay there for a moment scared to move because I thought I might have broken my arm. It was twisted behind my back in an odd way. I didn't, I just bruised my pride, ego and later we would find out my ass. I’m just glad now for my flexibility and hyper extended elbow. I wasn’t' sure what the deal was so I thought it was best to go to the hospital. Of course I didn't want to call and ambulance so I had to call a friend. (My boyfriend still doesn't have a license) I was having a hard time sitting and standing...walking or anything else! It wasn't pretty...

When I got to the hospital there was another woman in the triage room that was the equal to the size of a closet, the room, not the woman. Then I went to register and there was a wait for that too...I'm glad I wasn't in some serious bleed mode cause it took forever.

Once they called me back I was hoping that it would go a little faster from there...NOT A FREAKING chance. Not to mention every person I talked to asked me the same set of blah blah questions. What a damned joke this hospital is. I will never go back there...

To make a long story short I was there for over 3 hours for them to tell me I was in pain, to stay off it for a few days and to take some Advil every six hours. They also gave me a Percaset (sp). They wanted to put me on crutches but I wasn't having that. I told the nurse who was discharging me (this was a new one...the doc didn't even have the balls to come tell me himself) that I didn't want the crutches because of my small apartment not to mention it was going to be more of a hassle then the pain of walking...That confused her and she had to run out and make sure it was ok w/ the doc that I talked back to her. I think it scared her that I didn't think her one step up for and orderly ass was Godly enough to tell me I HAD to take the crutches. Grrr...That is over 3 hours of my life I am not going to get back and dearly miss...Please if you are ever in the area of Montgomery County in PA don't and I repeat DO NOT go to Mercy Suburban hospital...it's dirty and slow...Check out the www.insanity.net web cam pics to see my bruise!

Current Mood: sore
Current Music: The Final Credits of Metroid for the Nintendo Game Cube.

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YAY!!!
Just thought I would drop a line to let you know that I was alive. I just got home yesterday from seeing my family...woo hoo! My friend Mary got married. It was lovely. I met some great people and some real characters too. I saw the stars and the lake and it was a wonderful time. :o) Things change and life is good...but everyone needs to move on!

Current Mood: sleepy

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WEBPAGE!!!
Yeah that's right I have a web page kiddies! Check it out - It's not great, yet...but it's something!

www.manicgirl.com

Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: The wooshing of the A/C

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Cold day in July...
I jsut went for a walk/run...it's nice out there. New song out by the Dixi Chicks it's called Cold Day in July. That song is quite fitting. Oh well...that's what I get for wanting to make the bed cause sooner or later I'm going to get tired and have to lay in it.

Current Mood: blah
Current Music: nothing

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Seriously Messed...
Ok so my fiance is seriously messed up in the noodle. Look what he did to our pure and innocent Pikachu!!! He and that WHORE of a monkey that he brought home! I don't know if Pikachu will ever be the same.



Current Mood: amused
Current Music: The rain on the window

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